My last blog post was almost two years ago, just days before my husband and I were abruptly lunged into becoming business owners as our only source of income. The two years that followed were fantastic. Our business has done great. It was never my intention to remain a full time employee of the company. It’s my husband’s baby. The time has come for me to move into the next season of life. I scaled back my workload dramatically to allow time for personal development, taking care of my family and figuring out what’s next.
But right now I’m in this uncomfortable gap where I have no direction. I have nothing that is purely mine. I’m not obsessed with anything, and that’s strange for me. I’ve always had something. A business. A hobby. Something that was mine and mine alone. I don’t want to cling to the first sparkly thing that catches my eye. I’m searching for the thing that will fulfill me long-term.
There’s absolutely nothing wrong with being a housewife or stay at home mom. But that’s just not who I was made to be. If I were, I wouldn’t be sitting in my living room typing this, feeling utterly unfulfilled and bored out of my mind.
I struggle with trusting myself with big decisions like career paths and education. Having bipolar and ADHD tends to make me fickle. I’ve settled for less than I’m capable of for my entire adult life because I’m worried that I’ll devote years to education and training only to lose interest. I have a strong feeling about where I want to go and “what I want to be when I grow up”. But it seems… big. But it also seems perfectly logical, lucrative AND something that I won’t lose interest in because it’s something I’ve been passionate about for years.
This post is just a quick update to bridge the two year gap. I’ll be posting more frequently now. Look forward to topics on personal growth, self-care, mental health, self-love and more.